Goodbye

 You told me to trust you,

and I did.

Now it’s ending with me

hurt and confused.

Just as quickly as you came, you were gone.

You told me you were falling for me.

You told me that I was worth it,

that I was enough.

You told me to believe you — 

and I believed you. 

If you are trying to protect yourself from the hurt,

then please help protect me too,

because it's killing me right now.

It's the most physical sadness I've ever felt

from my throat,

to my stomach,

to my fingertips —

I'm breaking.

I know I've lost you, 

But I don't want this to end with these feelings.

I know I won’t get you back.

I won’t be able to prove to you that the distance is something we can work through —

I know it can’t for you. 

But I still want a proper goodbye.

Something beautiful, meaningful.

I hope that you think that we deserve that too. 

I hope you don't think that this is where it deserves to end.

I hope you thought more of us.

But, if this is the goodbye that I get...

then I wish you nothing but all the good things that life has to offer.

I wish you wealth.

I wish you success.

I wish you genuine happiness.

The type of happiness you would give up everything for.

I wish you the type of love that you would do anything for.

And…

I’ll miss you