I think I just loved you deeper
I felt you in my bones
And I was gutted when you left
You hoped it didn’t scare me
how much you liked me
How much you wanted me
And honestly it did at first
I was worried I wasn’t ready
Or able
To give you the love you said you wanted
And I picked you over my fears
I know you don’t but
I remember our talks of the future
I didn’t close my eyes and see you
I saw us
It hurts me to see how we were
Living in different realities
Was I a product of your impulsivity
A taste of your desires
Our glasses were different
Rose colored vs black and white
I saw resilience
You saw an ending
I am fading from your memory
Just as quickly as we built our foundation
And I am reliving moments
As they were yesterday
But you say you feel safe with me
Hold on to that feeling
Let me comfort, challenge, celebrate you
I can see your heart
I made you promises
I intend to keep
I accept this emptiness over
Never seeing your light
For now I must figure out
How to rebuild from heart break
While you still hold
Everything I had inside me to give
We could fall apart
Just as easily as we could blossom
I’m ready to work
I’m just waiting for you
