A Secret Affair

I met someone so perfect for me.

So sweet, and funny, and smart.

He knew so much about the universe,

and he quickly attracted my heart.

The first meetings were innocent,

two new people befriending.

Each day we spent together

had an unfortunate ending.

 

So much changed when I learned

he was not alone,

but I still got excited

to see his name appear in my phone.

 

We were swimming somewhere dangerous,

we knew that it was bad.

We could not quite stop

embracing the opportunities we had.

 

Then he brought me somewhere beautiful - 

the greatest view.

Melting in closeness,

I was afraid of what we would do.

 

We were drowning in temptation,

and it just happened so quickly.

I will never forget the moment

when I shared with him completely.

It took some convincing,

a short little fight.

I was going back and forth - 

YOLO... right?

 

But then everything went wrong.

Time and space were bending.

Our newly formed friendship

had an unfortunate ending.

 

His feelings changed

just like a boy.

It is always the players

and I am just the toy.

My decisions really shook me.

I felt as if I was spiraling down a black hole.

This feeling reminded me

of how I have never felt whole.

My mistakes linger in the stars.

I look up and lose my breath.

The time short lived with him

I should have known would end in death.

Everywhere I go

he is in everything I see,

not because of love

but because he is haunting me.