You used to tease me for letting it get so low—
"you're crazy," you’d say,
half-amused, half-worried.
Now the warning light stays on longer than your replies.
I still let it run low sometimes,
let it dip past empty,
let the light flicker on and stay there,
just to feel something close to your voice again.
Because you’re not here to notice anymore.
Not in the way you used to be.
You’re three time zones and a thousand silences away.
I still scroll up sometimes—
read the old threads,
like gas station receipts I never threw away.
Back when you’d write just to say
you were thinking of me.
Back when your care showed up
like clockwork, like kindness
I didn’t have to earn.
We don’t talk much anymore.
The replies come slow,
small and tired, if at all,
like you’re drifting
somewhere too far to reach.
Now, I fill up alone,
watch the numbers climb,
the pump clicking to a stop.
My tank is full.
but I feel empty.