It started with an attraction
A connection
Modern technology
Introduced me to perfection
You gave me compliments
We made small talk
Technology advanced
And a friendship was unlocked
Then you called me
And I called you
I learned little things
Like that your favorite color is blue
I was discovering who you were
Our bond was growing fast
Getting lost in the call
We noticed 4 hours passed
Then we got to meet
Our first Skype call
You read me some poems
And I managed not to cry at all
I asked
you to celebrate my graduation
May 24th was the date
You said you'd try your best
And then I had to wait
It all became real
When you walked down my street
It was such a surprise
And my cheeks filled with heat
I had the best 7 hours
Spending it with you
I enjoyed our time together
And I hope you did too
Then the party was over
And it was time to say goodbye
I fell into your arms
With a great big sigh
You held me so tight
It felt warm and comfortable
And that last hour
Was truly wonderful
We kissed a lot
Even better than the first
Then having to watch you leave
That feeling was the worst
I missed being in your arms
The second you left me
But you had a long drive ahead
And I had to let you leave
I started looking forward
To what could have happened next
And getting to see you again
Would have really been the best
We called each other again
Almost every night
And talking to you
Just felt right
You came to visit me
More times than I expected
Our late McDonalds run
Could only be described as perfection
Then you surprised me again
When you brought me ice cream and flowers
I think it was July 3
And I was smiling for hours
You drove me places
And couldn't stop singing Latch
It was when I saw you
dancing
I knew you were a
catch
You always got my
heart pumping
And you sure made me
smile
You kept coming over
And staying for a
while
Cuddling up next to
you
Was the sweetest
thing ever
The way you made me
feel
I hadn’t felt in
forever
It was exteremly
wonderful
Waking up to your
embrace
I was so happy that
when I opened my eyes
The first thing I saw
was your face
After spending some
time apart
It was driving me
crazy
All I wanted to do
Was spend some time
with my baby
Then you moved down
to Victorville
Getting to school
became much easier
You invited me to
your house
And I became a
frequent visitor
Our bodies got close
In your small twin
bed
On your chest
Is where I rested my
head
September 4
Is a day I won’t
forget
Ill remember every
second
From sunrise to
sunset
Then I learned even
more about you
During our study sesh
I understood you much
better
All of your emotions
seemed so fresh
I didn’t know what
the future held
But I wanted us to
find out
I still loved getting
to know
What you were all
about
How we first met
We talk about it all
the time
How could I forget
You were always so
sweet
And you always made
me giggle
Even my worst days
You brightened more
than a little
I counted it as a
blessing
Each day we had that
was new
I didn’t know who or
what to thank
For bringing me you
I tried to be there
for you
As much as I could
I hope you felt like
you could rely on me
If you did, then good
We spent a lot of
time together
You came over with
dinner
With a guy like you
I felt like such a winner
You kept showing up
Not because I invited
you
With surprising luck
It was because you
wanted to
We stayed together
And woke up so
beautifully
Every second we had
Was spent so
perfectly
After a while
There was a falling
out
You said it had to be
done
You wanted to take
your own route
I was so confused
And I didn’t want to
lose you
I was realizing
feelings
I guess were not
mutual
With the
rollercoaster that followed
I couldn’t stop
crying
There was nothing
more I could do
And I had to stop
trying
The possibility of
something more
Started to fade away
I saw you less and
less
And it was hard
everyday
I wasn’t sure how to let you go
Or even if I wanted
to
I just wish I could
have told you
How much I really
loved you
It got harder every
time
My heart was feeling
sore
And as much as I loved
you
I couldn’t do it
anymore
We had been through a
lot
Our relationship was
complicated
All the things that I
wanted
Were never
reciprocated
It grew into
something dark
And the both of us
struggled
Our relationship then
Became a burden to
juggle
The days we spent
together
Were far and few
Our hearts and bodies
grew distant
And we didn’t know
how to continue
I drove out to see
you
One last time
We forced ourselves
to talk
And it felt like a
lifetime
I found it hard to
open up
But was ready to
admit
It was time for me to
move on
And I finally felt
okay with it
I conclusively
accepted
Something I never
wanted to
I was holding on to
something
That ruined us two
I am so much happier
now
And wish nothing but
the best
We just didn’t work
And now we can rest
I don’t want to lose
you
And would love to be
your friend
Because there is
something about you and I
That will just never
end
Written 8 October 2014 Updated 28 March 2017
