Monday, March 31, 2025

The Heat of Blooming

Your fingers are the wind,
brushing across my skin.
Every touch makes me tremble,
and I respond,
like a flower leaning toward you in the breeze,
unfolding without hesitation.
A bloom wanting more than it can hold.

Your hands are the rain,
each drop feels like an invitation,
that draws me open.

Your mouth is the sun,
burning through me—
a heat that consumes,
but leaves me hungry for more.
Every kiss lights a fire.
My body responds to your intensity,
every inch of me reacts to your
fingers, lips, the weight of your presence.
I let you dive deep
into the soil of my desire—
digging, searching,
until I shudder beneath you.
You take a bite out of my ripest fruit,
And I watch as the juice drips from the corners of your smile. 

You’re the spark,
the lightning pulsing through me—
a wave of electricity through each of my delicate petals.
You pull me closer,
overwhelming my senses,
until I break open,
shattering the calm,
unleashing something I didn’t know I could give,
trembling,
uncontrollable,
until the thunder crashes,
and I’m lost in it—
a wild, unrestrained force
that only you could summon.
And boy, were you up for the challenge.

When the night falls,
we’re nothing but desire—
a force moving together,
each touch, each glance,
another moment of exploration,
another layer of me peeled back.

I am a garden,
the raw, aching bloom,
untamed, hungry,
waiting for you to take more.
And in the quiet of the night,
when we finally collapse,
we are fire,
and I burn for you,
until there’s nothing left
but the echo of what I crave.


Wednesday, November 1, 2023

I miss the future

14 days….
He said, “I'm excited for our future together.”
14 days before he broke my heart.

Two days before that he sent me photos of an apartment he said he could see us in together.
I saw it too.
I was already filling the walls with photos of us and all the places we’d travel to.
I saw all the dinners we’d share in the big white kitchen.
a cozy bedroom… where I can imagine we’d spend most of our time…
Being close, finding new ways to love each other — 
and of course the Mario Kart battles.

Five days before that
He said, “I want to be someone you could see yourself marrying.”
And,
“We are just getting started.”

If I knew the end was just 21 days away… I would’ve kept him on my lips a little longer.

194 days after he broke my heart 
I asked him if he really meant all the things he said about a future with me…
He said, “I don't remember.”

But how could that loving future we were building … or his desire to grow with me… just fade from his memory?

How does someone just …. forget?

I wonder how many days he knew,
Or how many hours he tried to plan what to say,
or what bullshit excuse to give me.

1,015 days after he broke my heart
I haven't forgotten
1,015 days and I still miss that future.
But now it’s just a black and white photo hanging on the wall of that home…
Just a memory.